Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Trying for Normal

I haven't blogged in a while because I've been so busy but I forgot that people actually read this for updates! For me, it's a therapeutic journal...Danny has been home for a couple of weeks and is slowly recovering. His abdomen is still red and "infected" looking, but he has no other signs of infection. The doctors truly have no idea what the redness is and don't have any more tests to try. So, we watch and wait. His heart biopsies are still showing no signs of rejection, but a new rejection determining test (done by bloodwork--called MAP) is showing slight rejection. Apparently it's a little more accurate than the biopsy and even though is shows slight rejection, I don't think it's enough to really worry about at this point. The doctors are still adjusting Danny's medicines regularly as routine blood work results become available. Though his incision is healing correctly this time, Danny still doesn't feel very good. Overall he is improving and getting stronger, but it's a slow process. Headaches, body aches, swelling, eye pain, fluid retention, mood swings, etc... I have gone back to work and am pleased to say that the Lord has changed my attitude and outlook on working. It's hard, but not the hardest thing in life and I'll be fine!! Maggie and Charlie are happy we are home. As would be expected they each struggled.struggle in their own ways with Danny and I being gone, but we are working through those challenges together. It's nice to have a parenting partner at home again...even if he helps from the bed mostly. :) 

Hopefully Danny will continue to slowly and steadily improve. It would be an awesome miracle if he never had rejection issues to worry about. I'm so grateful he's home. Thank you for your prayers and support. It has been such a blessing for us!

~Tricia

Monday, March 10, 2014

Repeat mystery area

When Danny went in the hospital for the surgery to reopen his sternum, flush it out, and close it correctly we anticipated that he would be home a few days later. That surgery was on 2/27/14 and it is now 3/10/14 (11 days later). The doctors knew about the complication because of the inflamed, red area on the bottom of Danny's sternum. As unbelievable as it is, he has a new inflamed, red area and inch or two where it was before. The nurses and doctors are completely baffled. So far the bloodwork and cultures are testing negative for infections, but it's possible he could have an uncommon bug they are not testing for. His body is showing signs of a problem other that the big red area on his sternum. His temp has been a little higher than what's normal for Danny and his BP and pulse have also been high for him (at rest). So, even though the doctors don't yet know what they are dealing with, they do know there is a problem...and they are concerned. The doctor on call over the weekend for the heart team saw him on Saturday and took a picture of Danny's sternum (to send it to the surgeon who was out of town over the weekend) and Sunday when she looked at his chest her mouth dropped open. I would love to say that Danny and I are making a bigger deal out of this than we should be, but we aren't. It's not good to have had a heart transplant, a suppressed immune system, and then have a mysterious area that looks incredibly suspicious for infection. Danny had an ultrasound yesterday and just like the first time, something is showing up on the ultrasound, but they don't know what it is. Danny is still hopeful that it's a cool little alien friend living in his abdomen. 



The doctors are still tweaking his pain meds trying to find the right one to alleviate his pain. They just came in for rounds and the thought is that it's fluid collecting again...or still, really. When they pulled out the chest tube the other day it was still draining but because his abdomen was starting to get red and inflamed again, they removed the tube to eliminate the possibility of it causing infection. I don't understand why if the chest tube was in and was draining why his sternal area started getting inflamed and red again in the same general area. I think they will put in a wound vac because the surgeon told us after this latest surgery that the next step would be a wound vac if necessary. Apparently they are amazing at stimulating healing. Danny's sternum is just having a really hard time healing and having a suppressed immune system makes it very tricky. They have to lower the immuno-suppressant medicines to enable his sternum to heal (and fluid go away), but if they aren't careful his body will reject his foreign heart. 

We don't know if they are just going to wait and see what happens or do something surgically (proactive)...but I do know they won't send him home until his pain is managed and they feel comfortable knowing for sure what's going on with his sternum/fluid issue. 

This is my last week with Danny before my leave is over and I have to go back to work. The kids have been struggling with the pressure of all of this and so I am going home at night and back to New Orleans during the day. If Danny is still here next week it is going to be awful not being able to see him during the day. 

Though I know for sure that God is good and faithful, and I know for sure that He loves us and has not forsaken us, all of this is still very, very hard. I haven't learned those things through this experience because I've already learned them through previous life experiences. What I'm learning through this trial is that He is the perfect comforter. People try to comfort-and many do. However, some people are hurtful (unintentionally I'm sure) and that is so hard. When we are in survival mode, our feelings and emotions are fragile and vulnerable. I think maybe things that are hurtful to us now maybe wouldn't be in times of life when things are smooth sailing. Anyway, I'm learning to give that hurt to the Lord and allow him to comfort me and bring me to forgiveness. Forgiveness can be so tough and I'm not an expert by any means!! I am an open person who wears my feelings on my sleeves. God is teaching me  and convicting me to take my troubles to Him first. He does use the body of Christ, friends, family...to support each other...but God should be our primary source of comfort. I hope I learn that lesson well through this time of trial. 

Prayer requests:
Danny's fluid/sternum/solution/pain
Maggie & Charlie (God knows their needs)
Tricia: strength, learn God's lessons, work next week, parenting, support Danny

Thanks and God Bless, 

~T




Wednesday, March 5, 2014

On the Road Again

The song On the Road Again keeps coming to my mind... Danny and I are so ready to get back home again!!! 

Danny is able to use the bathroom without trouble or pain now and he is sleeping through the night, which is something he hasn't been able to do in a long time. The amount of fluid his chest tube is putting out is still over the limit, so we are waiting on that to slow down a lot. If the tube is removed too quickly then the extra fluid may seep out through his sternal incision instead of being reabsorbed into his body. So, the best thing to do is to be very patient and let the chest tube do its job!

Danny is still using a pain pump that he will keep until the chest tube is removed. The good news is that when he needs the pump, it works...however, he doesn't need it nearly as much as he did in previous days. Danny will be transitioned over to oral pain meds with IV pushes for breakthrough pain when the chest tube is removed.

I thought the incision the surgeon did this last time was to reopen the bottom 6 cm of the sternal incision, but apparently   I misunderstood. The surgical bandage was finally removed today and it's 6 inches, not centimeters. That makes more sense to me because I was having a hard time understanding how he could drain fluid, flush, scrape, and stitch in a 6 cm opening!


Bottom 6 inches reopened...that's about half!
What's still covered is the chest tube exit site.


Danny's arms look soooo sad...the slightest touch hurts.His veins are not cooperative anymore!

Bruises from IV's and blood work

We try to go for several walks each day. It's kind of hard because Danny needs to walk to recover more quickly, but walking makes more fluid drain through the chest tube thereby keeping him hospitalized longer...



Prayer requests:
  • Chest tube stops draining or slows down considerably
  • Easy transition to oral pain meds from the pump
  • Sternum stays closed tightly with no leaking
  • The 1st three lead to going home soon!!
  • Our children


God Bless,


Danny & Tricia         





Saturday, March 1, 2014

Persistence

I admire Danny's persistence...I would have given up the battle more than an hour ago. After receiving a pretty good amount of IV fluids and drinking water orally, Danny finally feels the urge to urinate. His bladder feels full and despite his valiant efforts, so far nothing! This began at 12:00 am and it is now almost 2:00 am. I'm not sure what else he could do to force his body to urinate. He rotates between sitting, standing, bedside, bathroom, running water, silence, praying out loud, praying quietly...His pain medicine pump is now out of medicine and is beeping steadily and loudly. He refuses to call the nurse in to refill the medicine because then the nurse would do the bladder scan to know exactly how much urine Danny has, and then the nurse would probably have to do another in and out catheter...Danny (against my advice) is choosing not to call the nurse about the pain medicine being out and is absolutely determined to go to the bathroom on his own...even though that means he will be totally behind on pain medicine. 

Persistence. Like I said, I would have given up already!! Clearly the catheter hurts pretty badly for him to give up pain medicine for now. The nurse told Danny he was going to give him until midnight to use the bathroom and then comes the bladder scan, a call to the doctor with results, and probably in and out! It's two hours after midnight and still the nurse hasn't come in. That means Danny is seriously running out of time!!! Who will win the battle of the wills...Will Danny be able to urinate on his own without pain medication? Or, will he be forced to give up by the nurse??!!?!?! Stay tuned...

Friday, February 28, 2014

After surgery day 1

Last night and today have been long. Danny hasn't been able to urinate on his own yet and has already had one in and out catheter (put it in, drain bladder, take it out) at 4:00 am. Since then he still has not urinated (despite trying every trick in the book) on his own. They are giving him more IV fluids in addition to not limiting his oral intake in hopes to "jumpstart" his kidney. 

Danny is on a pain pump with Dilaudid and he is requiring a lot to keep the pain down to a 6 or 7 out o 10...10 being the worst pain. Apparently many people would be knocked out with the amount of pain meds Danny is on right now. Throughout our marriage Danny has never really felt relief from typical pain meds, so his solution is to take nothing unless it's unbearable pain...and then it's when I'm making him because I'm worried about how badly he is hurting. 

Anyway, the thought is that the Dilaudid is making his bladder "sleepy" and not give the signals needed for his body to urinate like it should. For sure this will work out and his urinary system will get back on track, but in the mean time they have to continue to do the in and out catheters to empty his bladder. The nurses have a bladder scan machine (like an ultrasound) that tells them how much urine is in the bladder. The in and out catheter is used if the urine is over a certain amount...Apparently the bladder can burst if it gets too full for too long!?!? That sounds pretty uncomfortable to use one of Danny's favorite words. :)

We are both exhausted from spending all night and day trying to help Danny urinate. The question was raised about how I would go about helping Danny use the bathroom...Well, hold him up when he's sitting or standing so he doesn't  get too wobbly and fall, holding the urinal for him when he gets too tired, waking him up when he dozes off so he can keep trying, water running in the background, Hot water to dip his hand in, rubbing his back to help him relax, etc... We literally can't think of any other "tricks" to try so it's looking like the in and out will be happening again soon. :(

We went for a couple of walks down the halls today. He was pretty wobbly, but made it just fine. He may go home as early as Monday...the hold up will be getting his pain under control on oral meds. He wasn't sleeping at all due to pain prior to this hospital stay and the doctors really want the pain well managed before we go home. Pain is preventing Danny from sleeping and doing everyday chores/routines...and that wasn't the purpose in receiving a new, healthy heart!!!

Please pray that Danny's recovery would be so fast that no one could assume it would be anything other than the Lord. Pray for pain relief and perfect healing of Danny's chest.

God Bless, 
Tricia


Thursday, February 27, 2014

Surgery Day

It's about 6:00 am and we just now found out some info finally! Dr. Bansal is hoping to only have to open up the bottom of Danny's sternum to remove the problematic stuff that's in there (Danny refers to it as his growing alien). If it's pus or infection of any kind--high probability I think...they will take a culture to be sure of exact bug so they can use the best antibiotic. In that case, he may be on antibiotics for about 6 months. Bansal may cut out Danny's zyphoid process (little, useless bone at the center, bottom of the rib cage) if it appears to be hindering the sternum from healing properly. Whatever he sees when he goes in, he is going to fix. Because Bansal isn't sure exactly what he is going to find, Danny had to sign all sorts of consents...two types of anesthesia, blood transfusion, and something else I can't remember. 

I feel very comfortable with Dr. Bansal just doing what he needs to do to fix whatever is causing Danny's extreme pain. He is very detailed, picky, and demanding of how hospital staff cares for his patients. He's fun because at first one might get the impression that he is just difficult...but that's not the case at all. He absolutely cares about his patients and wants the best for them. Danny and I really appreciate him and know that the Lord uses him to perform wonderful medicine! 

All that being said...I'm feeling excited and hopeful about this surgery because I know that Danny is in good hands and will be on the road to feeling great soon! 

I have no idea how long surgery will take, but the OR people have my cell phone # in case I'm not in Danny's room when they call. I don't know if he will be discharged today or if they will keep him a bit longer for pain management and/or observation. He's in the TSU (transplant step-down unit), so it's very much like being back at home. Transplant patients are like family around here...it's a very nice environment! 

I'm going to blog throughout the day as more information becomes available. Danny and I are accustomed to being "fluid" (not knowing the plan and just going with the flow). That's the life of an LVAD/transplant patient. However, I realize that lots of people want the info ASAP so I will do my best!!

Thanks for prayers for an amazing surgery and recovery. 

~T

9:15 am...still no word from surgery. Just waiting patiently!!

10:15...surgery over. Dr. Bansal came up to the room for the update. Danny did fine. He didn't have to cut the entire sternum open. The bottom 6 cm of the sternum is what was not closed correctly. That part wasn't wired shut (wasn't supposed to be). Stitches are commonly used in that very bottom part of the sternum. Danny had a huge amount of inflammation and fluid collection. Bansal removed and flushed out the fluid. He scraped (with a medical "sandpaper" in easy terms) the edges of the tissue on the sternum so it can grow back together properly. He put that bottom part of the sternum that wasn't joined together correctly back in place (like puzzle pieces) and used very tight stitches to hold them in place until healing happens. He didn't use wire there because if there is infection he wants the stitches to be able to dissolve without having to open him up again. They did not see pus, but are sending the fluid off for a culture. Danny was intubated for surgery, which he won't like...but on the other hand, whatever Bansal felt he needed to do I'm glad he did! I'm also very glad he was able to deal with the sternum as well as the fluid today. Bansal said that even though he sewed the stitches very tight at the bottom of his sternum, he wouldn't be surprised if that area started leaking again (that is the same area where fluid was literally squirting out of Danny's abdomen a while back...that was wild!! Here's a pic of that craziness... :)



Bansal said it might leak because Danny has soooo much inflammation right now and once the inflammation starts to go down, the stitches may loosen...causing leakage. In that case, Bansal would put in a sponge vac, which is a sponge stuck to the leak and a vacuum type device on the other side of the sponge to draw out the fluid. 

He expects Danny to be in a lot of pain when he gets back to the room and they are going to give him a pain pump for while he is here. Bansal put in one drain tube (chest tube) and will remove it Saturday IF the fluid output is very low. 

Bansal did remove a stitch from the LVAD that was missed during the transplant surgery. I don't know that the stitch caused problems, but why leave something in there that serves no purpose?! 

Bansal wants the heart failure team to drop Danny's steroid level for a while so the sternum can heal well. The steroids aid in anti-rejection...which means that they try to stop the body's natural attempt to heal itself. Since a transplanted organ is not what God put in the body, the body knows that it's foreign and would automatically try to attack it. The steroids and other anti-rejection meds stop the attack. That's good...but the downfall of anti-rejection meds is that his whole body is now not doing it's natural job of self-healing. It would be cool if there was a medicine that only stopped rejection of the transplanted organ and didn't effect the rest of the body. 

So the trick will be to find the fine balance between a low enough steroid dose that allows his sternum to heal properly and high enough that his body won't reject the heart.

Danny isn't back in the room yet because it takes a while to be extubated. I'll update again when he gets back to the room and I know more!!

~T

9:20 pm  Danny got back to the room about 3 pm I think. He has been very groggy from the anesthesia and in and out of sleep since then. 

Using head rest as a splinting pillow to ease pain


Trying to untangle wires













He is plenty silly when awake:

"I got this T for my T"...later it was his gladiator helmet!!



When the nurse told him he HAD to urinate or the doctor was going to order a catheter Danny said "Now, remind me what that is...will that be pleasurable?" lol 

"Hey Trish, see my lasso?"




"Come over here and tell me what the extracurriculars are all over my back." He had some stickers for the heart monitor leads still stuck on his back from surgery and this huge round bandaid thing over his bottom. I'm still not quite sure what that's for but when I went out to ask the nurse if it was ok to take it off, I started by saying "he has this big, round...". She finished my question with laughter and said "bandaid on his butt?...Yep, they didn't tell me that was still on, you can take it off. just let me know if it has anything on it."




Front and back pic...I have no idea!!!!





This nose flap this is just hilarious. It's a O2 and CO2 sensor for patients with pain pumps. If his levels aren't correct, the pump won't allow anymore medicine...So it certainly serves a purpose and makes sense, but looks absolutely ridiculous! Danny, the nurse, and I were all laughing. There's  this unbelievably ridiculous show on TLC called Myrtle Manor we watch sometimes for a good laugh. The security guard for the trailer park has a "gostache" (a mix between a goatee and a mustache...not joking...) Anyway, this is Danny's gostache!!!



  
















Though he is in a lot of pain at the moment, I'm excited that pretty soon he will be feeling better than he has in years!!!! 

Will update tomorrow...

Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Back in Ochsner

The nurse called us yesterday and told us to go to admitting at Ochsner between 2-3 pm today. They are admitting him tonight for observation and pre-op prep for surgery tomorrow. We don't have much information yet about what's going to happen tomorrow. The nurse told me that there are two issues...the first that needs to be corrected is the mysterious problem they see on the CT. It's either fluid/pus/or infection trapped toward the bottom of his sternal incision and they believe that's the cause of the majority of his pain. The second issue is the non-joining of his sternum. We (or the nurse) doesn't know if his sternum will need to be re-broken to heal properly or if the removal of whatever fluid type stuff is trapped in there will help the sternum to heal properly on its own. We just now got in a room (7:15 pm--sat in admitting since 3:30 pm) and haven't seen the on call doctor yet. He or she may or may not know details of the plan for tomorrow. The good news is that the surgeon doing the surgery tomorrow knows exactly what's going on!!

Ok--so the doctor on call tonight just came in and has no idea what the deal is. He's going to call the heart team and tell them Danny's in a room and see what needs to be done tonight. As frustrating as it is (not really for us because we are used to it), I can tell this is going to be a "fluid" hospital stay. We probably won't know what's going on until tomorrow morning...or maybe not!! None of that maters to us very much. We are just grateful to be here and the surgeon will do something tomorrow to begin to solve the problem!!

I will post again when I have more info...Pray for doctor's wisdom, successful surgery, pain relief, information for us so we can tell family... thanks! ~T

Now it's about 10:00 pm. An anesthesiologist just came in to get release signed. He had no idea what type of surgery Danny is having...all they know is who the doctor is so they don't ask questions. He had Danny sign releases for 2 types of anesthesia so they're prepared to do whatever they need. Then a heart surgeon on call came in and said surgery is at 7:00 am but that's really all he knows. He's not sure if Danny's sternum will need to be broken open again for this surgery or not. So all we can do is wait and see what the surgeon finds tomorrow!! We really like this doctor and feel very comfortable with whatever he needs to do. 

D will have pre-op tests and labs throughout the night tonight...

Will add more when I know more!! ~T